Tuesday, March 06, 2007

hi guys. well today i am blogging again as usual.. this few days i was thinking abt my past..and as i thought more about it..i really wanna thank God for everything that had happen in this 4 going to 5 year which is this year..though i am nt a pastoral leader or a ministry leader or a shepherd..well i feel rather disgrace to be in church that until now i am nt a leader...as i think abt it more i feel more discourage..but den the holy spirit reminded me abt the verse the workers are many but few are chosen..and i realise i dun really need to be a leader for i myself is a testimony to other people already..i always thought that only be a pastoral leader it can bring me to alot of places to do in church..it is true...but what most important is till my relationship with God..many dis-coragements really pull me down..i wan to achieve God's vision upon me..i wan to achieve my dream but is nt so easy...is very hard..up till today i dun quite understand that why ppl judge example; like u wan to be something but the requirement is to be a Pastoral leader but what if ur calling is nt being a pastoral leader but a ministry leader..do u tink that it is fair to waste God's given talent... is like u only can move on wen ur leaders say yes...but what if God use the holy spirit and prompt u.. is difficult to change the mindset of the ppl..all i can say that i will believe and go by this way-" if it is nt my calling to be a pastoral leader and my calling is to be something instead, i will go all for it" God's given talent to u is nt for u to judge weather to let the person use it or not but is enable and let the person use his giftings and talents for the church is make up of many parts of the body..- this is how i feel and really thinking about...

isiah 43,psalms 23!God's assurance