Monday, October 29, 2007

IS A NEW DAY!! wow..well..nthing to wow abt..-stupid..anyway..days of sadness is passing soon..living in pain and sorrows is passing by soon..it looks like life is gonna be different after all..today..as i was worshiping the Lord..the Lord ask me a super serious question..:"my child, is time to make a decision. will you give me your all to me." and during this part of my worship..everything in me that is so heavy lighten up..i feel the comfort..the restoring of my energy..and the Lord said:"take your time to think carefully because what lies a head will nt be easy if you say yes." i was like..WORRIED...and i am scared..so i make a decision of saying...."yes lord..i will give u my all, no more boos boos..help me lord..help me lord.." i kept singing with my guitar playing-G,EM,C,D- help me lord..i was so scared..and the lord spoke to me again:" start from the start again..start from your basics again..read the book of matthew onwards" i am scared..cox i scared i will fail him half-way..i dunno what to do..-lord help me!! well,i know i have done so many mistakes in my life..i have many regrets..but this time i will move on and focus on God..

the life i nvr thought would happen, what will it be...
a different heart is going to take over this heart of mine..
Help me pls LOrd..Help me..

Friday, October 19, 2007

today..what is today..is it new or is it old..suddenly this emotions can into my heart..and i started questioning myself...life wasn't i wan it to be if i chose it myself..many things has or have happend this few months..i think he really miss me alot..after i neglected him so long..i always thought living a christian life was fun..but as time passes by..it was getting more hard...why is it so hard to obey him..why am i so stubborn to chose the wrong path..life is straight but i make is crooked..i have been walking left and right..when is it going to be straight..i really longing for that desire..that desire when i first met him 5 yrs ago..a desire that i really wanna have it again..the burning,hunger, child-like desire for him..times are changing..more and more politics are rising..when can everybody just have a simple heart..or is it just me..struggles upon struggles..pain and more pain..where is the joy..sometimes..i just wish i was always a simple person..so stupid of me..i know i need him..without him..what will i be..well, 1 more week..and i am gone..is his plans..i will move on..even if i am nt inside..-to him: "wait for me..i will come back to you in your arms..like a child.."-i love you....Lord.

is jus a life..that i had nvr thought...

Sunday, October 14, 2007

yosh..well, back to blogging..many things has happen this few months..many things i wanna know and understand but is just not yet i guess, is God's timing..well recently i was doing my QT and that day i don't have any lyrics and chords to worship God..so i decided to jus play with Faith and amazing thing is that 2 songs jus came to my mind and i started to worship God but i started to worry what if i play wrong..and i really played wrong..but i started to have faith again..and everything turns out well..and i learn faith as tiny as a mustard seed is so powerful..haha..and gosh tommrow sch starts ARR!! help..lol..i dun tink i can wake up siah..tommrow still gt work..ok la..tats all for today..shall TRY to blog more..if gt time..

-next Sat 27/10 is the last Day...and den no more..