Friday, October 19, 2007

today..what is today..is it new or is it old..suddenly this emotions can into my heart..and i started questioning myself...life wasn't i wan it to be if i chose it myself..many things has or have happend this few months..i think he really miss me alot..after i neglected him so long..i always thought living a christian life was fun..but as time passes by..it was getting more hard...why is it so hard to obey him..why am i so stubborn to chose the wrong path..life is straight but i make is crooked..i have been walking left and right..when is it going to be straight..i really longing for that desire..that desire when i first met him 5 yrs ago..a desire that i really wanna have it again..the burning,hunger, child-like desire for him..times are changing..more and more politics are rising..when can everybody just have a simple heart..or is it just me..struggles upon struggles..pain and more pain..where is the joy..sometimes..i just wish i was always a simple person..so stupid of me..i know i need him..without him..what will i be..well, 1 more week..and i am gone..is his plans..i will move on..even if i am nt inside..-to him: "wait for me..i will come back to you in your arms..like a child.."-i love you....Lord.

is jus a life..that i had nvr thought...