Friday, August 22, 2008

its been so long keeping this to myself..i thought it could heal as time passes by..but it didnt.. my heart up till today is still broken and shattered..i wanna move on but i cant..i keep lying to myself for all these months...for the sake of that person...well, still must endure it..but i know one day i will just become worst..my life is just regrets..nvr there was one thing i will do well nor will i ever be good again..friend are all leaving me..my life sucks..i feel like just ending my life here..i had enough of all these..hiass..i am tired....i am nt of use anymore i guess...hopeless and useless like last time..no one cares at all..

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

well,i am now working in changi airport. LOL..until tomorrow morning 7AM..man i gt a maths test later on too..haha..hopefully can pass..well, not much happy things to blog...and..i am becoming a workaholic..well, on tuesday...my sports teacher told me something about life..life is un-fair. totally.. it doesnt mean u have a degree means u get promoted at all. u might even get paid for a diploma level...well,thats true..hmm..seriously..i wish i could apply all these in my spiritual life..and i belive i will do so greatly..but it seems cannot..and i dun really know why..is jus me i guess..life really sucks to be like this...i really wish one day i will say life is Good..well, nowadays working in airport..got a chance to go in transit area..haha..i gt a pass to go in..wow there are so many things inside that i nvr see before outside in sg..haha...and it is cheaper too..i going to save up to go another country!!...cant wait to travel..lol..well..i am soon going to fade away from a place soon..anyway..thats my final decision..i am not of use over there...what i want to be can nvr happen in that place..a promise but end of a lie..so nvm..ok la..gtg already bb.