Thursday, November 20, 2008

man!. i got this super big issue in my life!! and it getting me into so much trouble!! HOW TO WAKE UP EARLY IN THE MORNING!! man..i really cant wake up. sian. always miss my morning lessons on monday and friday. GOD how???? should i invest on 10 alarm clocks. i think i really should. i think this saturday i will be going to buy alarm clocks before i go to service.this really makes me feel so shitty. how to hellp myself..i dunno..saddens my life.

Monday, November 03, 2008

hmm..this few days. I have been stress about a couple of things in my life. I realize i don't really know how to prioritize what things to buy first and last. i really wish i am rich. Not in this type of average poor state. Now i really need a new job. Sometimes i really don't understand. Why God don't put me in a very rich family. But why he chose others to be rich. Sometimes i realize that money is a big burden in my life. And i really HATE it alot. Because of Money, many things can't be done. sometimes I think. Why God has a plan for me. But yet he still put me here. Why doesn't he put me in a rich family and the plan is the same. I feel so bloody mis-serable. Without money, i can't persue what i want. Without money, my family is going to be even more stress. Without money so many things can't be done at all.

Now i have to go make bank loans for my study. And is a burden. A burden of not enough money. LOANS...DAMMM IT...i see other families who don't even need a bank loan. And that is one thing off their mind when they have money. They can send their children overseas to get a higher qualification. But for me..that is no way. sometime the life that God put me in really sucks. why cant i just be rich and the God's plan is the same as now. Life really sucks.