Monday, November 03, 2008

hmm..this few days. I have been stress about a couple of things in my life. I realize i don't really know how to prioritize what things to buy first and last. i really wish i am rich. Not in this type of average poor state. Now i really need a new job. Sometimes i really don't understand. Why God don't put me in a very rich family. But why he chose others to be rich. Sometimes i realize that money is a big burden in my life. And i really HATE it alot. Because of Money, many things can't be done. sometimes I think. Why God has a plan for me. But yet he still put me here. Why doesn't he put me in a rich family and the plan is the same. I feel so bloody mis-serable. Without money, i can't persue what i want. Without money, my family is going to be even more stress. Without money so many things can't be done at all.

Now i have to go make bank loans for my study. And is a burden. A burden of not enough money. LOANS...DAMMM IT...i see other families who don't even need a bank loan. And that is one thing off their mind when they have money. They can send their children overseas to get a higher qualification. But for me..that is no way. sometime the life that God put me in really sucks. why cant i just be rich and the God's plan is the same as now. Life really sucks.